Memory
Memory is of the very stuff of Consciousness
itself. Consider that we can never know what is happening, but only what has
just happened, even when most actively concentrated on what we call "the
present."
Moreover, no impression short of Sammasamadhi can ever pretend to confer any
coherent idea of the Self. That exists only in an order of Consciousness far
deeper than direct perception, in a type of thought which is capable of
combining the quintessence of countless impressions into one, as also of
transforming this tabula rasa into a positive prehensile Ego. Whether this
process be hallucinatory or no, it is surely memory which, more than any other
function of the mind, determines its possibilities.
Now, whatever view we may take of the nature of the Self, it is clear that our
limit of error will constantly diminish as the range of our observations is
extended. To calculate the orbit of Neptune from a period of days when it is
retrograde could lead to formidable fallacies. When memory is seriously
weakened, the resulting state approximates to dementia.
Memory is then, in a figure, the mortar of the architecture of the mind.
It seems impossible even to begin to discuss its nature as it is in itself; for
it is not a Thing at all, but only a relation between impressions. We must be
content to observe its virtues.
First of all is that already noted, its extent in time. Second is the faculty of
selection.
It would be as undesirable as it is impossible for the memory to retain all
impressions indiscriminately. Such memories are found only in lunatic asylums.
The memory, whatever it may be, depends on cerebral metabolism; and it thrives
on a proper harmony of exercise, repose, and economy just as does muscular
strength.
Memory as such is practically worthless; it is like an abandoned library. Its
data must be coordinated by judgment, and played upon by skill; it resembles a
great Organ which requires an organist.
By classifying simple impressions, one obtains ideas of a higher order; the
repetition of this process gives a structure to the mind which makes it a worthy
instrument of thought. And this means enables one to retain, and to bring at
will from their quiet resting-place, a thousandfold the number of facts which
would overwhelm the untrained memory. One must model one's mind upon the
arrangement of the ends of the nerve-fibres and the brain.
At will! Here is the great key to proper selection, that one should resolutely
remember all facts that may be useful, and as resolutely forget all those
impertinent, to the True Way of one's Star in Space. For so only can one
economise the mnemonic faculty; and this is to say: no man can begin to train
his memory duly until he is aware of his True Will.
There is then - as in all matters pertaining to the intellect - a vicious
circle; for one can only become conscious of one's true Will by a judgment (of
Samadhic intensity) upon all facts that it is possible to assimilate. The
resolution of the antinomy is found ambulando: that is by the selective training
above indicated.
A further complication of this whole question appears during the practice of
Yoga, when, the sheaths being successively stripped from the mind, one begins to
remember not only long-forgotten facts, but matters which do not refer to the incarnated Ego at all. The memory extends in time to
infancy, to one's previous death, and so further to an unlimited series of
experiences whose scope depends on the degree of one' progress. But, parallel
with this intensification of the idea of the Ego, its expansion through the
aeons, there arises (in consequence of the weakening of the Ahamkara, the
Ego-making faculty) a tendency to remember thing which have happened not to
"oneself," but to "other people" or beings.
Herein is one of the most irritating obstacles in the Path of the Wise; for the
normal development of the memory in Time leads to a better understanding of the
True Will of the individual (as he conceives of himself) so that he perceives an
universe teleologically more rational as he progresses. To be compelled to
assimilate the experiences of supposes "alien beings" is to become
confused: the old hotchpot of Choronzon (Restriction be unto him in the name of
BABALON!) gapes once more for the Adept, who possibly supposed himself already
(in a sense) a Freeman of the City of the Pyramids.
But it is just this experience - in default of any other - which eventually
insists on his undertaking to cross the Abyss: for the alternative to sheer
insanity is seen to be the discovery of a General Formula comprehensive of
Universal Experience without reference to the Ego (real or supposed) in any
sense.
This paradox, like all others, should be a lesson of supreme value: this, that
every difficulty is for our vantage, that every question is posed only in order
to lead us to an answer involving a triumph infinitely more glorious than we
could otherwise have conceived. And meditation upon this whole matter may not
unlikely bring us to this further vision of wonder: that the nature of things
themselves is in reality but a function of Memory.